Below are the most recent 2 friends' journal entries.

Friday, December 25th, 2009
certifieddivaj	8:34p	Not your average Christmas Post!  I’m not too sure what to make of many situations in my life right now!I feel like I have more options that I know what to do with!  I guess it’s better to have OPTIONS than NO OPTIONS right?  Eh.. we’ll see.   For the most part… I’m a positive person. I have a bubbly personality and am often asked how I stay so happy! But sometimes I’m like “AM I HAPPY”  I think I am… but @ times I suppose I question my own self with “IS THIS HOW I WANT THINGS”  “IS THIS HOW MY LIFE SHOULD BE”  “IS THIS WHERE I SHOULD LIVE” I’m sure it’s all things we’ve questioned ourselves with.  But the truth is… I’m not happy with the people I have in my life.  I could see myself bend backwards for my friends a thousand times… but not once would they think of doing the same for me.  Yet… I keep these people in my life… in my phone… on social sites like facebook and myspace… but WHY I do it… I’m not too sure.   I remember when I was younger, if I got mad @ someone, I would DELETE there number out of my phone.. but secretly I would write it down, and put it in my dresser with hopes that one day it would be resolved and that I could eventually use it again.  But you know what.. I shouldn’t have needed to do that then.  I shouldn’t do it now.  If someone is MENT to be in my life… they can track ME down… and they can do the work to find me, and tell me that they messed up and they are sorry.   It’s silly for me to be HOPEFUL for someone to come BACK into my life and apologize. Because u know what, they normally NEVER do!  So then what I’m doing by hoping, is setting myself up for disappointment.   Not sure why I get so hurt by it.  I mean… YAH everyone gets hurt by their friends… but I guess I have a bigger heart in the sense that I think “WOW all the things I did for that person, and yet they can do that to me”  It sux… no lie!   I don’t make NEW YEARS resolutions! I never have.. I never will… but I can tell u this… in my eyes… chances run thin… and if u cross my path the wrong way… then you’re done away with, and end of story there is no coming back.    Merry Christmas to you all my live journal friends!   (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, December 17th, 2009
certifieddivaj	8:35a	2 more official days of work, and I am off for 2 weeks! It’s going to be spectacular I tell you! Sleeping in is what I am looking forward to most! Christmas is in like 9 days! My gift wrapping skills are like one of a small child with a missing hand! I would take a pic of my horrible gift wrapping job, but I’d hate to lose live journal friends over it! HAHAHA. But yea, really.. I should have hired someone to do my wrapping for me. Oh well. It’s whats INSIDE the gift that matters! HAHA! I must have spent like 2 hrs the other night going through my old LJ posts! What a life I had. LOL seems like every post had a pic, and every post had like 15 comments! Those were the days right? Amazing how the technology continues to advance. First AOL, then LIVE JOURNAL, then MYSPACE, then FACEBOOK, then TWITTER. LOL I can’t wait to see what’s next. I’m sure I’ll jump on that band wagon too! I’ve cut my calorie intake until Christmas! It’s turning me into quite the ravishing BEEOTCH let me tell you! Good thing my phone SUCKS because if I could actually receive calls in my house, I’m sure I’d be an angry Beaver on the phone due to lack of calories! HAHA 2 weeks to go! I can do it. (2 Comments |Comment on this)